'Love' tsk tsk.

Love. How do people fall so easily in love ? I don't get it, especially guys. I don't understand them. How does one know love if they didn't feel the love from the person they're falling for ? Don't people have to reciprocate love for one another before that feeling is established ?  I don't believe in making people fall in love with you. If you didn't feel it at first glance then they're not the one for you; they're not the one you're going to spend your life with. When i imagine falling in love it'll be as if we both know love existed in the space between us, that our only mission is figuring out whether or shapes fit in our space filled hearts.  Of course, the first impression of love you feel for them may not exactly be the deep emotion but it'll be some form of friendship love or the i feel like you're my platonic soulmate crush. But to be completely honest with you or anyone in fact, I can not make myself love you the way you want. I can be your friend, acquaintance, family but I can not be the person you idolize in your head and assume that i'm "the one". That's not your choice and oddly enough it's not mine. That's why being extra kind or giving me extra materialistic things just won't reach me in that way. I would be appreciative of the effort and thought you made but you're asking for something in return that I know I can't give. I guard myself you see. I'm not going to just agree with you because I empathize for your willingness and eagerness. In fact you should be slightly ashamed. For all the times you've bothered me or overwhelmed me. I sound like a selfish crude but to be real you're the selfish one here. Taking my attention so that I can only pay attention to you. Adverting me from essential things like education and even sleep. I have a moral consciousness, I can't just pretend you don't exist! But you're rude, plain rude and selfish to justify your "love" for me is something worthy enough and it makes me feel like a shitty person. Why can't you like me back ? Why can't you return the emotions ? Why don't you appreciate the things I do for you by loving me back ? Because your love is not real. Your mind is brainwashed. If my ignorance and snobiness doesn't make you realize that i wasn't the person you're looking for then you've just courted the better version of me that I never was with you. I'm sheltered in my reality while you're out their wasting away in your dreams. This message you're reading right now, its my last and final wake up call to you. So please forget about 'me' and start seeing the world for what it really is.