For a while I didn’t realise I was still holding on to something that wasn’t letting me grow, I held onto him because I thought that when the right time comes, when he would be ready then I would be there for him , ready as well. But the past few weeks, noticing him be around other girls and being close with them it hurt and I had no idea why. I don’t get jealous, and I definitely don’t get hurt or angry about those things especially since we aren’t in a relationship. When I thought I had forgiven you, when I thought we were going to be okay, and when I thought God was working to fix us together, I had closed of the option that maybe you weren’t meant to stay.
I realised I was only hurt because I was still holding onto something that wasn’t intended for me to hold on to. You know we realise that God puts people in our lives to either be a blessing or a lesson. You were a lesson, a lesson I had to learn the hard way. You were put in my life to take me through an important season. A time where I was able to feel what it was like to care for another person, to be vulnerable and to be selfless, but I was made broken, empty and consumed. Still I’m thankful because I was able to learn more about myself and He was able to refine me. But God is letting me understand that I’m not meant to take you in my next season. What I felt towards you and the hopes I had for us, I have to let go of. Those feelings weren’t meant to be forever. And I’m finally realising that this wasn’t a lesson for us. You were a part of my journey and you were put in it as a lesson for me. So I’m glad, relieved and so at peace knowing what it is I have to do to move forward. You know the biggest thing I’m thankful to God for is his lessons. The way he teaches us and the way he reveals to us things that we would have never been able to learn on our own. So I thank You Lord for holding this heart so close to yours. ❤️
1 Corinthians 13:12 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
